I am pretty much done with the week 2 assignment and I have completed the week 1 assignment which I missed out last week. I guess it will be time for me to go to bed soon.
I was told that my family might not have enough to last through this month due to the unnecessary expenses this month, like fixing the water pipes so that we can bath everyday. Moreover, the numbers of checkups, medical scans and doctors' appointments this month skyrocketed. She has to go back to the hospital almost every week for scans, check up and next week would be the doctor's appointment once all the reports are out. Finding money to pay for all these would be one problem, worrying about the result of her report will be another problem. I hope that she will be better and not worse. It's a long and torturing month for me.
Least, I managed to finished most of the video lectures, assignments and readings this week. I am quite proud of myself being able to do that. However, I am wondering if spending the time on part time job would be better for my family. It definitely will not be worth it for myself as I am determined to get my diploma this December, and I am going to apply for it. However, if I were to spend my spare time taking up another part time job, perhaps it would reduce the burden on my family though an extra two to three hundred bucks will still leave me negative every month. If only I don't have 20% of my salary taken away every month, I would have around four hundred bucks more every month, and with a part time job, I will have close to seven hundred more every month. With this, I am sure I will be able to afford our expenses every month. However, due to the laws and regulations, everyone born here are to contribute part of their salary into a system which lock in the money for their retirement and other needs. Unfortunately, I would like to live my life the way I want to, I am certainly not planning to retire and not going to live pass a certain age. Hence, such system is quite meaningless to me. If you ask why do I think this way, perhaps, it is because I believe that everyone is responsible to live their life they want to and not being bound to the norms of the society. Moreover, I doubt I will have a reason for me to live such a long time if my precious ones are not around. Therefore, it is quite a meaningless system, perhaps this system might help others but definitely not me and my family.
Unfortunately, even though we claim we might be a free being enjoying freedom (in the sense that we are not in jail or enslavement literally), when you think deeper it might not be the case. In my opinion, it seems as though I have never ever experience being a free individual. I felt like I am under-control by many different factors. Since young, regardless of your opinion, it would be compulsory for you to go to school. Since birth, regardless of your interest-which you might not have one (or perhaps just eating since you are still a baby), you are exposed to the default language that your parents are using to communicate with you. After we graduate from school, we are forced into labor to survive and earn to meets our ends. More often than not, we do not land in the job position that suits us well, one which you are passionate about, one that you can excel as you do not mind working hard due to your interest. Despite being such an unhappy being, we are repeatedly brainwash by external factors like friends, family, media, books, advertisement to be happy since life is short and be satisfied with what we really got. Unfortunately, you might be able to convince yourself one day, yet the truth is you might be lying to yourself too. Living with your made believed 'I am happy and satisfied with my current life, I can never ask for more.' Yet, the ugly truth is most of the time if you happen to receive more than you expected, you'd definitely feel better. Then, isn't the former sort of a lie? Yes, I think too much and I should stop wondering about questions like this which might get me into troubles one day. I have my hands full with things outstanding, unsettled, future bills, past loans and more. Why should I be thinking about this in the first place? Isn't it a waste of my energy? Let's just stop talking about this.
Perhaps, you may have a solution for me but you might be too shy to share it with me. Don't worry about it, I won't bite since I won't even know who you are. Feel free to share with me what do you think I should do in order to solve my problems. Perhaps, what do you feel I shouldn't do to make my problems worse. I would appreciate that.
Anyway, it's twelve and I will go to bed early today. Hopefully I can relax and sleep well so that I would not feel too tired tomorrow. I am planning to do up tutorial three for Python programming tomorrow if I am not tired. Unfortunately, I have a bad feeling that I might need to over time since I did not go to work today. Perhaps, they leave all the things to me and I will have to complete a mountain of work accumulated since yesterday. I am seriously having this bad feeling now. *Prays*
I hope you will have a better week and month as compared to me. Ciao for now.
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