Clearly, I am definitely one of the unmotivated ones, however unmotivated I am, I will try to do my best in the work that were given to me and make sure I finish all of my responsibilities before I leave even though as you know from my previous posts that I am not paid for staying outside of my working hours. Even if I am sick, I was not allowed any leave or early dismissal after I am done with the things I was supposed to do because others would just push me theirs to work with. Yet, the real reason me being unmotivated was I feel nothing about the work I'm doing, I don't like the nature of the job as it does not seem to have a purpose and I can't see myself working long term in this field at all. With the misfits in company cultures and the attitudes that my team mates are giving me, it just makes me feel worthless and inferior compared to the rest of them. If they were treat everyone slightly fairer regardless if they are poor or rich, fresh or experience, perhaps I would not feel as frustrated everyday. However, I will still leave the position once I found a position that I think I will see myself enjoying and work in the long run.
Yes, I have read another article today and it was talking about "being unmotivated is a choice not a consequence". This means that it is trying to imply that if you are unmotivated, that is because you made that choice and it is not a result of you being treated unfairly, or not compensated fairly and so on. Do you actually agree with this? My view would be there are some truth to it, however, it may not completely a choice. Say you are in a position which you are passionate about and feel really motivated to work everyday, it's something that you look forward to. But the environment and the culture of the particular organization just happens to turn you off everyday. Some times it may be the people you are teaming with just can't get along well and problems seem to be endless everyday. As time passed, you start to question why you are even working here and tends to dread going to work. It happens to some of us. Yes, and this shows that indeed being motivated or unmotivated may be a personal choice but it's a choice that is influenced by internal as well as external variables. It may be complicated to analyse and if I have to write something substantial about this topic, I may not be able to catch some sleep before work. Then some might come up with "things can be simple or complicated depending on how you want it to be", arguments just seem to be endless, aren't they?
For today, I have not done much apart from some readings. I spent most of today thinking about all sorts of different issues that my family and I were having. Someone told me before, thinking so much does not really solve any problems, why can't you just stop thinking and let yourself be freer and happier. Life is that short, why should you choose to live such a difficult life when you can choose an easy one. However, I think when the moment I stop thinking and worrying about all sorts of things and live the way I want my life to be, my family will have to suffer from a even worse financial constraint. As you know, they are really precious, and I will do whatever I can to lessen their burden. Then again, it would seem as though I am not living for myself and living for the sake of others which is quite risky. The time will come eventually when you don't have them by your side anyone, you will be so lost that you don't know what you are going to do. Well, let's just wait till the time comes and we will see what happens.
I believe that you are the one who understand your body and your health the best. Even if you may not be the doctor or a health professional, you know if you are well or not simply because we can feel ourselves which even diagnosis may not provide an accurate report of what we are exactly feeling. This is especially true for cancer patients from my experience. My dad passed away because of cancer, and my mum have been diagnosed with cancer for more than 12 years of my life (I'm really not that old though). Anyway, from my interactions with cancer patients in the hospitals when visiting my dad and my mum, I realize that sometimes it seems as though they could tell that they are going to passed away soon themselves even though the doctor told the patient he could live up to 2 more years. Also, a person who thinks he/she may have something wrong with their body would ask for a full diagnosis showing that he/she actually knows if the health issue is serious or not. If everyone were given a chance to gain knowledge on our own health, coupling with the medical diagnosis capabilities, the chances of having a wrong diagnosis may, in fact, decrease significantly. Yet, human life span may be too short for such knowledge to be acquired (In fact, it's too costly to equipped everyone with such knowledge with no exceptional returns for such an investment). Anyway, having a wrong diagnosis is more common than you think, just that most of the time we won't realize it because we are not equipped with the knowledge and are unable to tell. Only when eventually a patient lose his/her life then their loved ones may check and eventually find out. There is a recent case where a senior citizen was given the wrong prescriptions and eventually died due to an overdose of medication. The healthcare professional was fined SGD 6000 for the incident. It was followed by some uprise in the social media, typically facebook./Some commented that how can a life worth $6000. Others having doubts on the credibility on prescriptions that we received from the medical institutions. While I am sure you guys know, there bound to be trolls on the net, laughing at the incidents or just making fun about it. I don't have much to say about the incidents but perhaps the procedures when dispensing the prescriptions should be reviewed and have it checked by at least two different doctors for approval before it is prescribe. However, the advise would waste time, effort and money so I seriously doubt even if it was suggested, it may not be implemented. Ok, time to stop....Though I still have much to say about it, will find a better time to talk about this in future after I have research and find sources to quote from so that you will have a better understanding of which issue I am talking about.
Well, and here comes Monday. Hopefully, you are not suffering from the Monday blues as I am right now. My little wish is that if you're reading, hopefully you will be someone who look forward to what you are working as or what you are studying. This way life would be more interesting and exciting. There wouldn't be blues but rainbows all around! Joking, it's only likely to happen in fantasy story.
Ciao.
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