I received a call today saying that the interview date cannot be changed. Therefore, I guess I have no choice to go but return to office after that to finish all my work. I guess I will inform tomorrow morning since it is kind of late now.
For a moment, a strange thought came across my mind when I was travelling back home. However, I am afraid that I can't remember what that thought was about. I am certain it was something that got to do with death.
In the midst of the busy day, I received a call from my mother saying that grandma's sister had passed away and she will need to attend the funeral. In our culture, there is a need to gives money for any funeral that you visit. It's something like giving your condolences in monetary value. Since it is part of our culture, we have to abide them even though we may not have enough money for ourselves.
I had just finished preparing for my interview and I will see how much I can do and go tomorrow. No idea whether it will be a difficult interview or not, but I believe that no matter how difficult an interview is, there will be a way to achieve what you intend to. However, if you don't, it's fine because you can keep trying until you eventually succeed.
Great news! The keycool keyboard that was gifted by my cousin was delivered today. It's a ten-keyless mechanical keyboard with blue switches. (The switches are actually a modified version of cherry MX blue switches. Even though they are similar, they are not exactly the same) Since it is the first time I have tried using blue switches, I won't be able to know the difference.
However, I haven't plugged the keyboard into my desktop yet due to the lack of time. I am certainly eager to try out the keyboard. Yet, I am afraid that I might not have enough time to complete the tasks I have for myself today before I sleep. Hence, I will leave the testing of the keycool keyboard tomorrow. If I am able to find a stand to support my phone, I might be able to record a typing test for it during the weekends. Finally, something that I can look forward to and be sincerely happy to try and experience it.
Nowadays, I seem to be doing more and more things that are not of my interests. Nothing seem to be worth my time anymore. All the work that I did seem to be just a way of passing time. Especially, the things that are work-related. Even eating during lunch. I eat just to pass time. I realize that I will be fine not eating as well. Perhaps if I am doing something that interests me, I might be able to forward to morning. Fine, I admit it will be difficult to look forward to morning, but at least I will feel a sense of accomplishment when I finished up my job. The feeling of being satisfied is definitely better than the feeling of "why am I doing this when those are the jobs of other staff" and the feeling of "not being motivated to do the my work but doing just for the sake of passing time". In addition to that, you will need to get along well with the staffs who are pretty much practical and swallow. They tend to hang out only with those who carried branded bags or those of a higher rank in the company. I guess that is probably the right thing to do if you are planning to stay long with the company and intend to climb up the rankings. Perhaps, then it would make sense that I will not need to do that since probably I won't stay long with this company.
Talk about work, they actually commented that I am in a comfortable environment for work which such great people to guide me along. Well, it's definitely comfortable for them since they can just pass me their work and chat along all day. It is definitely stressful for me. Not only because of the location and the overcrowded transports. Being stress for the whole day, being afraid of unable to complete my work before the building closes, being look down upon just because I am not rich and do not carry a branded bag to work. Most of them asked me to buy material goods for myself so that I would look better. If I were to do that, who would take care of my family medical bills, utilities bills, rents, tax, daily necessaries expenses. Unfortunately, no matter how I explain, they probably never understand my situation unless they have gone through it themselves. I doubt I will have the chance and power to make them feel what I felt. Even if I did, I rather spend the time on other meaningful things instead.
I guess I will stop here and rest for my long day tomorrow.
Update more on the keycool keyboard that I have gotten tomorrow.
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