For those who are looking for an extreme unexpected news, I am really sorry to disappoint, it's just a normal unexpected news. You will never know what one is thinking I guess. It seems like the only supervisor who is nice and helps out when you have too much to do is going to resign. It was quite sudden in fact, well, I don't know what else to comment as I don't really know him well. Furthermore, he is not the usual one I report to unless our team leader is on leave, which happened rather recently.
I am still constantly looking out for other opportunities which I can go to and enjoy the work I will be doing. However, there are not many offers, and almost none had got back to me. I guess it's because of the lack of relevant certification, perhaps I should seriously study first. Recently, I have found a slightly cheaper course of my interests, however, it only begins next year. Registration of the course will be this year end, December. Anyway, the course is rather affordable after subsidies, however, the modules are not really in depth. It will be a good certification for entry position, however, for senior position, I guess I will need to further my studies and knowledge even more if I managed to secure a position in the industry. By then, how old will I be? I am not that sure as well. But if I don't try, I will be stuck in a position which I dread everyday. With this, it's more than enough to make me hard work and give it a go before giving up. I need to learn how to live for myself already, if not I will be the one who is going to suffer in the end.
Well, apart from that, as usual I feel really tired today. I think I have an idea as to why I feel this tired, it's because I am not really sleeping when I am asleep due to the fear of waking late and being late for work. No wonder on Friday, it almost feel like I have not been sleeping for days. That's why I went to google on how to help myself to relax and sleep well. However, I tried and most does not really work well for me. I will continue to find a way to solve that.
I have been typing this post for almost an hour now, and I haven't typed anything substantiate to justify the time I used to type this post. Indeed, there are some things that I am bothered about. It is a thought that I don't really wish to jot down. If possible, I hope I won't be bothered about it. It's difficult though. However, I think a crippled person like me would be able to do that well. The only thing I need would be time.
What else? Oh, not only I am reading about Java Programming, I have started reading about HTML as well. It is quite an interesting book to read, however, it's inconvenient for me to practice on it when reading as most of the time I will be in a really overcrowded train or taking a lunch break at work. The moment I reached home, I would work on my Java codes and no time for that at all. I am thinking of squeezing some time out to practice on HTML as well. I wonder how am I going to do that. Will that result in a loss in productivity in my work and end up fired? Most of them comment that I am working more slowly recently, and lesser work is done in a day. Of course, since they pushed most of the work to me, they would monitor my speed regularly. It is kind of stressful. I don't mind getting fired, but I am concerned about not having enough money to live and support my family. That's why I am keeping the position until I find a suitable opportunity. I guess I am sleeping later and later recently because this. To make it worse, there are things on my mind, I just can't rest peacefully with that.
I guess I don't have much time to complete the 4th Java Programming tutorial today since I am in the middle of working with a different code which gives me endless errors. I have not found out the reason why and still struggling with it. I am going to look at it at least until 12 am, if till then I am unable solve it, perhaps 1 am.
Well, I guess I better go work on that before I actually fall asleep.
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