When you feel like you are not yourself..

What would you do? This happens to me a lot. I just do things that I am unable to understand and there seems to be no logical reason behind the things that I have decided to do. Well, one example is I don't know why should I treat others well when they don't even bother about me at all. I know that I have no logical gains to doing them such favours but why? Maybe I should sit down and have a chat with myself to get myself working right again. Doing this in a long run will not bring me any good. It will only cause troubles and the lack of rest on my part. Aren't you already overworked enough? Stop getting yourself into more troubles than usual already.

For today, it's started quite rocky. Not only did the bus arrived late, the public transport was more than crowded today. Furthermore, the place where I happen to get my coffee everyday was overly cramped but I still managed to get mine. Then, due to the slow lifts of the office building, someone tried to squeeze into the lift and banged into me and my coffee, I ended up drenched in coffee this morning. Once I stepped out of the lift, the first thing I saw were the people working in department going out for breakfast while I was drenched in coffee. Well, I went to the toilet to clean up the best that I could, went to my desk and all the works were left on my desk. That's the beginning of one of my everyday. However, it seems like I am getting used to this when it is not something to get used to.

I tried to read some of my posts during my way to work and found quite a number of typographically errors, however, I am unable to find them now. I wonder where did all of them went. For those of you who read and spot the errors, please drop a comment and let me know about it. I will amend them as soon as I see your comments.

This month would be an uncertain one. That is mainly because of the huge numbers of medical check ups and scans that my mother will have to go through and the appointment with her operating doctor to decide if she will need to go through another operation or has her condition stabilized. I hope it would be the latter. However, I should be worried about the amount of money I need for her to visit the doctor this regularly.  To think, the previous lawyer's letter from the hospital wasn't even settled yet. My salary is really lacking. Even if I don't spend on transport and food, I won't have enough for her.

I will try thinking of a way to solve this before I go to bed tonight...