Today, I had a really good start of the day, at least I am not running to the wash room anymore. However, as every hour passed, things had gone from bad to worse. That's is just work life. I was advised by one of my friends telling me to change my mindset and get used to it. It's difficult to find the ideal job that you want to be in and that's the reality. After listening to that, I started wondering if I am not doing the right thing. Yes indeed, it is difficult to land yourself in a job nowadays and it will be even more difficult to land yourself in the job that suits you well and one that is of your interest. However, if you don't give it a try, it will be too late before you know it, you will be stuck in the industry that you don't enjoy as it is too late to do a job switch when you are of an older age with limited experience and knowledge of the new industry that you would like to venture into.
Perhaps, I may be wrong and I should have listen to my friend's advice. I might regret the decision that I have made in the future when I don't earn enough from doing the job that is of my interest. Despite that, I don't feel like giving this up without trying. Yes, I might regret but I am the one who made this decision so I will bear the consequences of my own choice.
I will probably stay up later today to complete a Coursera video as I signed up for a programming course in Coursera as well. I hope I will be able to commit throughout the course and learn something useful from the course. Perhaps I can even do up a post on what I have learnt from the course itself. It's going to interesting.
So I have not talked about what went wrong today. Seriously, how do you teach something to your supervisor when it's the first time you are doing it? No matter what, I went through it and it was hell. Being told off for not knowing anything about it. Having a supervisor beside you watching is stressful enough, and having to explain the work that you are trying for the first time is just horrible. Previously, I was the one in charge of another project, however, today one complained that his project is too troublesome and they just passed it to me. It's the first time I laid my hands on these. No one was willing to teach me anything at all. I am used to that and I can find them out myself. However, I was told to brief the new Supervisor on how to do the project itself. That's the most ridiculous thing that happened to me. So there were a bunch of things that I don't understand and of course, it's impossible for me to explain to her.
Furthermore, after I am done with all the work that was allocated to me, they were waiting for some reports to be approved and has to be completed today. Well, it was not my work, however, out of good will, I tried to stay and help. For some reasons, I don't know what they are trying to do but they were joking around and laughing. I went to asked if they are going to complete this today and if they need help. They just ignore me totally. Well, I did wait for around an hour even when I don't have any over time pay. They refuse to tell me anything. I just go ahead off my computer and prepared to leave, this is when they ask to me do up the report. It is frustrating. When they saw that my computer is off, criticisms come from all over the place. I really don't know what more can I do or say. I did try my best to get along and help when I feel that the department may need my help. Not only I am not appreciated and included, I am being treated like a fool in the department. Indeed, it's hard to swallow but it's how work is going to be. If you can't swallow it, you will just die starving. Either one to choose from. I have my family to support. Hence, it is obvious what I can do about this. That is nothing.
I will go on and watch the lectures for the course, perhaps I will update again later before I go to bed.
For now, ciao~
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