I missed yesterday and I wasn't able to update my blog yesterday since I reached home close to 11pm. Yesterday, she was on leave and I am unable to leave as "early" (even though it's over time and I am not being paid) as compared to the time I usually go home. After I washed up, I fell onto my bed and sleep without realizing I did. Apparently, according to my brother, there was a thunderstorm yesterday night and the wind toppled my neighbors hangers an bicycles. I didn't even realize that at all.
Well, I woke up today feeling guilty being unable to study nor post anything yesterday. Since I am back slightly earlier today, I shall jot down some of my thoughts before I fell asleep unknowingly.
Now, today I woke up slightly later. I guess that's because I am overworked and tired. Perhaps, partly due to the lack of motivation to work as well since I do not enjoy the work that I am currently assigned to. Hence, I reached office slightly later than usual but luckily no one has reached yet. As usual, I had to complete most of the work today. It's as if they feel like I have not enough work to do, they assign me another pile of outstanding reports to do up. These reports, based on my understanding, would never be completed even if I am given 3 years to complete them. Not only the information are difficult to retrieve, most of the time they are never approved. I don't know what am I doing to do about that. I will worry about it only tomorrow I guess. The only thing of my concern would be the lack of time to study, search for a new job position and to jot down my thoughts before I forget them.
Today, I got a call from a company on a job position which is related to the industry I would like to work in, however, the location was the other end of the country. It's too far for me. Although I would like to try to go for the interview very much, I doubt I can withstand travelling such a distance especially when the transport system isn't great. In fact, it's one of the reasons I would like a change in job and location of my work place to somewhere more convenient. The transport system is too inefficient and it waste more that 20% of my everyday travelling to and fro work. If I could save this time by even 5%, I am sure I could get more studying and work done. At least, I know that there are still company willing to give me a chance for an interview. It is still not that hopeless. Something that made my day a little brighter than usual.
Have you ever met an unlucky person? A person who just bought his/her food, tries to find a seat while a bird flew past and shit right into his/her food. Yes, I am that person. How very lucky I am? What more can I comment about it?
Week three of the coursera course material seems to be uploaded pretty early this week. I guess I won't be going through them today. Probably will try to finish week two lectures and, at least, half of week three materials tomorrow. It seems like we have to do up an essay assignment this week. I wonder if it's going to difficult to peer grade that assignment. I haven't tried that before, peer grading essays. Well, on the positive side, at least I will have something to look forward to tomorrow.
Apart from the only thing above that I can look forward to, there aren't anything else that is worth my attention. I guess I might not be able save enough money to further my studies and knowledge no matter how I try to spend lesser, on food on transport on bills... The list is just never ending. Yes, someone told me today to remember that there is always someone else out there who is more unfortunate, so be glad. I don't know how to react to this. When you think that you are unfortunate, you will realize something needs to be done to improve your situation and will try to break out of the vicious cycle. However, once you think that you are fine with what you have got, you will just start to live with it. You are not really living your life this way. Instead you are made to live your life this way because of your own thinking. Of course, the former is just my opinion. Others might be think this way. For me, happiness is definitely not something that one should be forceful about. Once you are in the right environment, and doing the right things for yourself, happiness is only natural. I may be wrong but I know I will never experience that unless I try and try even harder when I fail.
I guess that is pretty much what I have thought of. If I missed out something, I will just jot them down when I think of it.
For now, ciao and until tomorrow.
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