There are something I would like to talk about, yet I don't know where should I start. Perhaps I will start like this, for normal human beings, it is only natural to think that they are superior so as to gain self-confidence, which is vital for any job opportunity or any work place. Without confidence, one would be less likely to be promoted or be given the opportunity to grow within the company or workplace. It may even be true even if you are still schooling. Confidence seems to be really important nowadays. It allows one to be more persuasive and it allows one to stand out more compared to others. However, blind confidence with no substantial backings with knowledge and skills may also prove to be detrimental to workplace or even our own human race. We may think that we know it all, however, it may be the truth that we, in fact, know nothing at all. I have felt this way for a long time. Every time I think I know something about a topic which I have read up and study a lot about, after thinking and diving deeply into the topic, I realize I don't know anything about it at all. I wonder if anyone else feel the same way as I do. Perhaps that is why I am not suited to be a scientist or a researcher, because I will be pretty frustrated everyday at work.
So why do I talk about that? As you guys know about it, I am unhappy with the current position and industry that I am in. I do not enjoy working there nor do I enjoy learning about things there. However, as I am also a normal being, I need money to survive. Even though this job may not earn myself sufficient for my family expenses, at least, it still provides me with an income. However, I realize that even though I have learn so much on my work scope and the procedures of my jobs. I know nothing much about the topic. I can't explain the things that I really would like to explain. The thing is when I ask my seniors about it, they don't even know how to give me an answer. Eventually, I will just get myself more work so that I will not ask useless and irrelevant questions? Or probably they are just lazy to do their work.
Apart from that I have finished reading up chapter 4 and currently halfway through my video lecture for week three. I will probably make a mental note to finish my week three work by the end of tomorrow and read up on html during my free time on weekdays. I am looking out for courses that start recently, however, I am unable to find one. They are either too expensive or too far to travel to as I need to remain working while I study. I had my eyes on a course which has a suitable timing and location for me, however, the course fees was five times the one I was planning to sign up for on December. I guess it is not wise to spend on that if I can wait till December to sign up for the course. It's only a few months difference. *Just a way to console myself*
It's close to around 1am right now, I guess I will probably sleep at 2 or 3 am today so that I can get my readings done before tomorrow. It will be pretty distracting in the morning or afternoon as I will need to take care of lunch and dinner for everyone tomorrow. Since no one is available to do that except me, it leaves my no choice and lesser time for myself. It's actually a pretty selfish thought. However, based on what I studied in economics, it assumes that humans are meant to be selfish beings. Who know if this is really the truth. However, it seems like only when you are selfish, you will be more likely to survive in the current society. Perhaps, this may not be true throughout the globe, however, in modern city, this is more likely to lean towards being true.
I shall stop here for this post. I might post another in the morning after I am awake or perhaps after I am done with my lecture. Either way, hope you are having an enjoyable weekend. And may your days be better as time passed. Have a good rest and see you!
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