As you can see from the title, I am certainly not feeling well and I would go unconscious pretty soon. I had been ill for the whole day and just before I finish the last piece of report for work today, I had to run to the the washroom (yes, literally, I ran to the washroom) because I am having diarrhea as well. Perhaps, I am just not as healthy as compared to those slightly well-off and living their lives as "normal". Normal, in a sense, they live how they are expected to and have their meals like it's only a natural thing. For us, even meals, we would need to consider we will have sufficient for the rest of the month. Therefore, I ended up falling sick this often. Even so, we rarely visit the doctor, we will just sleep and let our body recover on their own. That's why I say I will go unconscious soon.
As usual, I have completed quite a amount of assignments at work today. However, I was made to clean up and throw the rubbish even though those are the cleaners job. Anyway, even though I am unwell, I was not being let off work and have to stay till I finish the last bit of the jobs that they pushed to me. The journey home today was a tough one, not only because I wasn't feeling well. The public transport was too overcrowded that you feel suffocating inside the train and bus. Too many people squeezing in and tripping over when the train breaks all of a sudden. When you are unwell and stuck in such a situation, you will wish you could just close your eyes and go unconscious. It's fine for me to wake up and realize I am in the hospital, however, I will not let this happen because it is not fine for me to see the bills after I receive the medical check up and treatment. It costs a bomb.
Unfortunately, there was any calls today for interviews or job opportunity. Guess I will have to be more patient and stop pondering about that every now and then. Breaking news: People are now suffering from a new psychological illness known as transportation phobia. (Who knows, it might really happen) We don't even have depression in the past. Anyway, this is one of the reasons I am looking for positions that are relatively near my rental flat. However, I wasn't even contacted for one interview. Perhaps, there is something wrong with my application or something. Well, I believe the opportunity will come if I don't give up and keep on trying.
I am really quite worried about my health and so I thought of taking time out to do some exercise once or twice in a week. However, I doubt I would actually have such time as it's almost impossible to do that during weekdays and weekends I have too much on hands to complete so as to make up for all the things that were pushed back during the weekdays. I am still thinking of a better solution to this.
At this moment, though I hope that I can continue typing, jotting down more of my thoughts throughout the day, I realize my brain stopped working, my hands and fingers slowing down and my eyelids are so heavy that it takes all my strength to keep me from closing my eyes straight away. It's really time to rest. If I manage to wake up earlier tomorrow morning, I will post one before I go to work. Well, perhaps, I might be too sick to even get out of bed. Who knows.
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