Seems like I shouldn't have...

How many times have we thought of the above before? How many times did we regret saying or doing something we shouldn't?

I did say something that I shouldn't, that was making my family worry about me. Basically, they think that I am being ill-treated at work and encourage me to change a job position. However, they do not are to ask me to quit as well since I am the only bread winner for my family. I guess I made them feel bad for no reason at all. Somehow I regret telling them what happened today. I guess I did say something unintentionally, I should watch what I say more. They have enough troubles in their heads as well, furthermore, they are probably suffering much worse than I did. (Not sure about my brother, but I was referring to my mother.)

Anyway, what is done can not be undo like what we always click when we delete or add something we didn't intend to with our computer programs. I will just watch my words from now on. Sometimes I am asking myself, "why do I need to live so carefully and intentionally?" Everything that I do have have a valid and logical reason behind, otherwise, I wouldn't do anything about everything that I don't have a reason to. That was why I did not pursue something that I was passionate about, instead, I pursue something which can land me in a job industry which has a higher demand for labor. I realize now that I shouldn't have done that, yet it is too late to regret. The only thing left for me to do is to pursue what I would like to be doing right now instead of pondering over spilled milk.

Unfortunately, due to the limited time I had, I am unable to do a review or write a topic that is more constructive as compared to my daily thoughts and rants. It's already close to 1 am and I should be sleeping. It is just difficult for me when I realize I add unnecessary worries to my family. Of course, my brother doesn't care much. He just had operation, due to a leg injury, yet he can still ask for money to go out right now to watch the world cup. To me, it's ridiculous. You are on cast and because of world cup, you are willing to take the risk. It's only the third day you are discharged from the hospital.

Well, I guess I don't want to make this post any gloomier. Have a good rest everyone, and we will see you later. :)