Do you experience some thing like this before? Times when you feel that your efforts, hard work and time are being all useless and nobody actually appreciates what you have done for them. I think most of us would experience this at some point of our life. One way to make yourself feel better is not to be bothered by those who don't appreciate you and remember the times when there are people who appreciate you. Most of the time those people will be the one that matters more than the ones who does not care at all.
Most human beings have a certain limitations in the amount of pressure, stress, emotional disturbances that they can withstand. No matter in school or at work we are constantly being exposed to different kind of expectations from others. Too much of these will definitely lead to an increase in pressure, stress and emotional turmoil at times. To explain the reason simply, we only have this amount of time to complete our work, average 8 hours of school or work, however due to the different expectations we might need more than that to complete. Since most of our work does have deadlines to meet, we will have to force ourselves in completing the tasks at hand with a certain quality and making sure that it is up to the expectations of others. Hence, in order to force ourselves, we will stress ourselves on our concentration, our thinking, and perhaps decreasing the time for our body to rest. Eventually, we will find out that due to the lack of rest and relaxation, we tend to be sensitive to our surroundings and interactions that we are exposed to. That is the time you may just snap when you are unable to take it anymore.
Well, why I am typing about this? I just felt unappreciated. Adding on to the lack of OT pay and low salary, apparently today, I was told not to send rubbish out to my supervisors. They told me to sent it straight to the clients. There may be several motives behind this. However, according to our procedures, work has to be double checked before we can proceed to send them out. Unfortunately, just because they wanted to plan for their holiday and refuse to check my work, the time and effort I had put into it is deemed to be a rubbish. To make things worse, they said that such work has only one place for them to be in and that is the recycle bin. What a nice thing to say to your team mates.
Even though I felt unjust, there is nothing for me to do apart from just sending it out. I left quite early this week, and every day the moment I stepped into the office, the one thing that is on my mind is I can't wait to knock off. It is simple. If I am not rewarded for hard work, there will be no incentive for me to work hard. I will just do what my responsibilities are and for those work that was pushed to me, I will just leave them aside until the day I leave. That's just all to it.
Perhaps work place is just like a hotel, you will never find one that feels home. That is why when people started working, most will eventually stop thinking at all. The more you think, the more miserable you will feel. Waking up everyday feeling miserable is not a comfortable way to live. Since humans are smart, we tend to avoid that by stopping our thinking. Unless you really secure a job position that you enjoy, most of the time, most of us tend to act like this. There is no right or wrong with this. It is only your choice, and the way you have chosen to live your life. Of course, things might be different once you have your family and children, you are unable to just stop working because you dislike your job. There are responsibilities for you to bear and eventually you might just stop thinking about your interests at all. Probably, you won't even have the time to.
Whenever I think this way, I feel that I am living in a rather lifeless era. Perhaps, I have not met people who really have a motivation to live and sincerely enjoy everyday of their live. I really hope I get to talk to someone like that one day so that I can know how their thinking is like. Possibly, this might help me to find my own motivation in life. Who knows.
I get to post one of my thoughts today as well.
Not too bad for the start of the week. However, today seems to be more tiring as compared to yesterday. It will be worse soon. I'd be braced for further criticism and cynicism tomorrow.
Hope your day is not as bad as mine. If you like to, you can share yours with me. I will be glad to read and listen. Have a good rest!
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