Sometimes I have to remind myself not to be overly hopeful at certain things. Due to certain incident that happened earlier this week, it mess with my mental well-being so much that I took a toll in my health as well. I didn't think it would be this serious when I received the news first-handed. I was hopeful that I would get a call back. Unfortunately, I am convinced that it ain't happening. Though I did tell people around me that my second interview got cancel, I was hoping that they would call back when they mentioned that they will arrange for an alternative date. Well, it's been over a week since then.
When I thought I had a slight hope in improving my work life and financial situation, it just vanished into thin air just mere seconds of in a call. Perhaps it would be better if I was rejected straight away in the call as there would not be any reason to wait. Well, I can only blame myself for being gullible and overly optimistic.
It is often for people to ask why do I have such negative outlook in life. Things might not be as bad as what I think they are. However, when you encounter such incidents continuously over a long period of time, I don't think anyone would remain optimistic. I might be wrong but I am definitely not wrong about myself.
I went to give myself a break yesterday as I was not feeling well since Sunday. Yet, I have been trying hard to bear with it and went back to work on Monday. Since there are quite a mountain of assignments and works to finish up, we were discourage to take time off work. Now, even the MD himself monitor our leave plan. Hence, if we were to apply for leave, we will have to seek for his approval. So I thought medical leave instead. I went to the doctor yesterday and after taking the medicine, I don't feel any better. Perhaps, my immune system is deteriorating at an exponential rate.
Just two days ago, I have received the invitation to attend the entrance exam for the course that I have chosen. Of course, I spent some time thinking about it and decided a few hours ago that I will try the exam. If I make it, then good for me. If not, I will be looking into an alternative course to take up. One point to consider is that some employers really dislike employees would need to go off early due part time studies. This is especially true in my current company when there are too much to do and too little manpower to cope with the workload.
Apparently, I overheard that the company is planning to look for intern from schools for temporary position so as to ease the workload during this year. Well, I am not sure how much it would help. However, the pace they are going about solving problems and arranging for this might not be in time as most of us are already tired out. There have been a large number of people taking time off work and medical leave recently.
Yes, I do remember I said I ought to be more positive. Yet, everything in this very post is negative. I hope things will be getting better so that I have more happy things to record down. No ones like depressing news anyway.
Hope you are having a better week. Remember to rest enough and work moderately.
Smile as much as you can and stay cheerful. (I know I shouldn't be the one to say.)
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