Do you ever wonder why your day doesn't feel like it will end any time soon? I have been feeling this way for more than a week. Everyday seems so long and endless. There are nothing much for me to do and the things that are pending could very well be completed all within an hour. Hence, I have so much spare time. However, you are not allowed to do something else during this time and that causes my time to pass really slowly. I guess I like to be in a position which I am occupied most of the time. A position which I can use my brain most of the time.
So how is your day? Is it as long as mine?
I have been wanting to post during lunch, however, I figured that I might not have enough time to do that as I have less than an hour to spare. I wonder what kind of work would actually give you the freedom and do not infringe into your privacy. I have been thinking about this whole day and the only answer that comes to mind is: entrepreneurs. To start a business, you will need a large amount of capital and if you are not successful, you are likely going to end up in debts. This is far too risky for me and for my family as I am considered as the sole-breadwinner.
Yesterday, I slept for six hours. Some might think that it is already a luxury to be able to sleep that long. However, for me, it is not enough. Right now, it feels like I can literally faint any time. When I was travelling around this afternoon, I felt as though I don't have the energy to carry on walking. Not sure if it is because of the weather or because of my health. I have never been to the check up and I guess there might not be anything wrong with me. Yet, there is always a possibility.
I managed to squeeze out some time yesterday afternoon to visit the polyclinic. I was given a medical certificate even though I told the doctor that there is nothing wrong with me. I just wanted a referral letter for me to pluck my wisdom tooth. To be honest, I have never wanted to pluck them out due to financial difficulties. However, with the referral letter, I will be able to get 50% off the total costs. Hence, I have decided to go ahead with that.
Tomorrow will be a rather long day for me. I have the intention to work for an alternative job, however, I have an ideal position in mind. I have tried to apply for the position countless of times and got shortlisted for an interview quite a number of times. However, I was not selected for the job. I know that I should keep trying but I do not dare to pin too much hope on that either. I know myself well enough that I will not be able to stay in my current position for long due to the environment, nature of work and the character of my superior (at least, I am honest enough to admit that I can not get along with her no matter how I try to).
Under the stress of my family trying to persuade me with all their means not to quit my current job, I am influenced and swayed by their persistent. I know very well that I should think of myself and what I really want to do in future. However, I am worried that they might not be able to accept my decision. Hence, I delayed handing in my resignation letter.
It's only 10:35pm, but it feels like 3am to me. I am so tired that I had vomit my dinner out. I guess I should rest well for now and leave the thinking and decision making till tomorrow. One day after another, will I be able to withstand if I think like this for a year? I wonder...
Hope you guys had a better day. If you are tired like me, rest earlier and don't overwork yourself. You may enjoy your work, but do remember that your health is really important too. We must still eat well and rest well!
Smile and enjoy the remaining hours of today. :)
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