The feeling of nervousness due to a change that is going to occur some time tomorrow. This happens to most of us I guess, part of us will always worry about the unknown and a change even if we know that worrying about such things won't do us any better. Most of the time what we anticipated won't match reality we faced. Yet, we can't help but to anticipate what we will face to keep us prepared and ready, or to make ourselves nervous and unable to sleep.
I had read through some stuffs on html and also tried an interesting Java programming code, which I have not been able to get it to work but well, I will just have to continue tomorrow. I really enjoy reading and trying out different codes or perhaps come up with one myself. It's just so interesting to see what you imagine and construct realize into a project and application. I guess some of you may feel the same way as I do, but some of you may think that such things are boring. Well, we all are different and entitled to our own personal opinions.
There was a really unfortunate thing that happened and that was I missed the deadline for submitting a house application, though I seriously doubt we could afford one. It can't harm to try. If you are not sure about something, you will have to try it even though you may be despair when you found out that you have no chance to even own a house in your home land.
Some can't be appearing to look worried and nervous in front of my family, as it will be increasing their burden. I don't want to do that and make things more difficult for my loved ones when we are already in a dire situation. When they need help, no matter how tired or sick I am, I should help them with whatever that I can. There is no harm doing that, however, some times you might wonder why are you treating yourself worse than others. They could have done it if they did some research on the problems itself. Thoughts like this will fill your head as well: They are just lazy, why are you the one who is suffering? Do they really care about you? I am not sure about others, but those are some of the thoughts I might have when I am depressed or overly exhausted. However, I won't be dead over exhausting myself, and once I had enough rest and clear my mind, I don't regret helping them even a bit. And here I am alive and typing, jotting down all my thoughts as they changed almost every time after a devastating event.
It's already quite late and I should really go to bed to prepare for the upcoming rough weekdays. As for tomorrow, I am not sure if I would have the time to keep it at two posts per day, however, I will try my best to keep my words. I should do something constructive, as well as a post that jot down my thoughts. I have no idea what I will be writing about, perhaps I may get some inspiration tomorrow.
I have recently just gotten my salary, however, after deducting the loans, bills and upcoming medical expenses, I am left with negative again. My job really is insufficient to support my family, however, the wages are almost the same everywhere you go. Unless you are able to get yourself into a company that you enjoy working for and have a good relationship with most of the employers and employees there to secure a future promotion, the wages everywhere would not differ that much. If you really need a higher wage, the only entry position to bet on will be sales, earning on a base salary with commission. However, I am someone who can't lie about something, and I don't like to force someone into something. I really would like people to have their free will to decide on the things that they want and not forcefully promoting and begging them to buy. Most will have to do that in order to meet their sales targets as well as to get their rightful commissions for the amount of work that they put in. To some, this might be really easy to do, however, to others this might be really stressful and tiring. I have some friends working as sales in various industries, one (for after seven years of sales) would like a job change due to the amount of stress and targets she had to meet, and every time she hits that the company will expect more from her, however, her salary was the lowest even though she had the highest sales. There is another who is in sale for almost two years now and is doing really well, earning quite an amount as she is in the financial industry. I guess she preach her stand well, and she can convince people well. Perhaps, she does have a flair to make people like her and eventually buy from her. It's something I will never understand about. Well then, all of us have our own personality, I don't believe in change your character to fit into a job (like molding yourself to fit into a mold), but finding a position that suits your character and your interest will definitely encourage a better job fit and lesser work problems.
Hey, for a moment I thought I typed I was going to sleep, why did I type the previous paragraph. I guess I am still nervous about tomorrow.
I will update again tomorrow and do up a constructive post on something (perhaps not mechanical keyboard this time, will do some read ups tomorrow and decide). Hopefully, you have enjoyed your weekend, catch up with some friends, spending time with your family, or enjoy your own personal time doing the things that you like. Tomorrow will be the start of the long five days week again, and hope everyone will shake off their Monday blues soon.
Ciao and have a good rest.
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