Pain that is not experienced by yourself, yet you are still hurt when nothing serious happen to yourself. It seems like my mum could not stand up due to a severe pain. The doctor told her that it is just a sprain and gave her pain killer for it. However, after taking the medicine, not only her condition does not improve, it got worse. Now, she could not even stand nor could she use the bathroom on her own. Even though I am not the one suffering, I hope that I could ease the pain even if it means for me to suffer.
Why must this happen? How did this happen? I am not sure, even she, herself, was not sure why this had happened.
I would like to send her to a better doctor tomorrow, yet she said I shouldn't take leave from work to do such thing. I wonder why? I will probably never understand her thought. Health is definitely more important than work. Furthermore, she knew that I do not enjoy what I am doing at work. All the more I should bring her to the doctor myself tomorrow. No one else will be able to do that.
No matter what, I hope that it will not be serious and she would be fine again soon. I don't want her to have increasing burden or illness in addition to the existing one which persist,
I have not jotted down anything about my expectations this week. With this, it makes it even harder for me to. Yes, I should progress on everyday no matter how little the progress is. However, it seems like my mind is filled with worries right now. It will be easy to figure out if I will make any mistakes tomorrow when I go to work.
Sigh..Caring is such difficult task. I never knew that it could be this difficult.
For this week, I will just do whatever I can manage. Now, I will need to find some ways to stop her from working tomorrow. I don't see how she can survive when she can't even stand and walk to the bathroom right now.
A short one today. A depressing one as well.
Well, hope you had a better day than me. Have a good rest. Ciao.
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