And I have been trying to type out the title of the blog post thrice since I can get the 'H' to be in capital letter. It is such a small problem and it took away almost 20 seconds trying to get it right. This shouldn't be happening in the past. I guess I am really not focus. The reason I couldn't get the H to be capitalize was because my toggle on the keyboard is on, causing everything I typed to be small letter.
Anyway, just one more day to go till weekend and a long break from work. In fact, it is a compulsory five days leave that everyone have to take. I know some are quite unhappy about the fact that it increases their work load, however, if I don't take it now, I would probably have no chance to take at all. Moreover, I might get into troubles with the HR team. Since I am taking the leave, I have the intention to leave the country for a while. Even just a short while to clear my thoughts and to relax. The real motive is to sort all my thoughts properly before I resume the never ending meaningless days of work. I want to know what I really want to achieve and how am I going to plan in detail on achieving that. Living without a goal is boring.
I used to have expectations and goals that I set for myself. However, due to the constant failures of meeting my own expectations, I got rather disappointed in myself. That is a fact. It took me quite a while to realize that. Moreover, most of the time I don't even take a good look at myself. Whatever that was given to me or that was asked of me, no matter whether I like it or not, I will just complete it for the sake of completing them. I never think about what I could gain from doing them, I never think of what I learnt in completing them. Hence, in the end, after such a long working period, I feel that I have learnt nothing at all.
It's time to take a break and sort everything out. Ranting here doesn't solve any problems at all.
I guess I will need my sleep in order to live for tomorrow.
Rest soon and rest well..
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