Post just before resuming work..

I just had my compliance leave last week and now I will be starting work tomorrow (possibly working till next year if I am unable to find myself an alternative). I got to say travelling really makes you relax and refresh. However, as I have stopped working for a few days, I am nervous going back to work tomorrow. All I got to do is to do everything carefully with references so that I do not make mistakes the moment I go back to work.

Yes, until now, I was not able to find an alternative job position for me. Hope is diminishing every single day. I hope things will turn for the better soon. To be honest, I really need a job which pays me more, I don't have enough to repay the debts of my degree education. If only I got full control of 100% of my income, I am sure I could handle it but I don't. How unfortunate.

Recently, I had stopped committing myself towards gaming, thus, I have the extra time now to continue posting and studying as well. I will pick up a course on Coursera soon and commit myself to post more tutorials when time permits.

I went for a short trip last Wednesday to Friday. It has been around 15 years since I traveled with my parent. Unfortunately, my brother had to study and was not able to make it for the trip. It was really fun and relaxing. I really enjoyed it. It took my mind off the troubles I have been facing recently. However, it does not solve my problems. I will have to face them myself and solve them all now. Hopefully, by the our next trip, we will be doing better.

As for today, I spent most of the time watching videos and thinking about my work. It is time for me to switch for a better position which pays better with more opportunities to advance myself. Hence, I spent some time looking and applying for jobs. Hopefully I am able to get some response tomorrow.

I think I should pick up on my reading so that I will be better in expressing myself (especially in words). I have had complaints during work saying that the emails I typed was not clear enough. I am not sure whether it's true or whether it is just politics. But rather than giving them a chance to shoot me on this. I could just read more and improve in the way I express myself. Perhaps, I have been listening too much Japanese and Korean recently, causing a bit of a confusion. Or perhaps, I am just not good enough.

Not sure if I should think this way. I found a book that was written to me when I was around 15. One of my teachers told me to face the obstacles with my kindness and filial but I should also have my own stand towards the issue I might be having, if not I will have a tough time dealing with the my life. Perhaps, I should stop finding answers and start giving answers? It is so vague, but one thing is true and that is I am having a hard time dealing with my life.

I guess the post is getting slightly long. I will update either later or tomorrow.

Enjoy your day and have enough rest.

Thank you for reading.