A mind to speak, but the mouth sealed it all

I wonder how should one think when you are face with a mountain too high for you to climb. Though I am not sure how could I solve the problem, most will tend to disappear as time pass. Yes, I think I have a big one in front of me which is out of my scale to handle it.

Just one problem can cause me to lose all motivation to go back to work today. Hence, I called in for saying that I will not be attending work. I am pretty much that it was placed wrongly while no one realize it at all. They think that it is the client's fault for not understanding the basics. However, no one is clear about how things should be and most are blaming for the incident. I did my part got approval of at least two other supervisors and yet it is still my fault in the end.

Not sure how things are going to end, however, one thing is the difference in amount is to high for me to bear. I am disappointed in myself for running away today. However, because of that, I managed to attend an interview today as well. There are always opportunity cost in every decision you make. There is no such thing as the best of both worlds. Of course, things might look different when you are of higher status in the society. If you are in the lower ends, the best you can do will be trade offs.

Respect used to be highly regarded in the past. Yet, it seems to be down the drain in the recent years. Perhaps, it may be due to the low value and returns on holding the value close to your heart. Maybe it is like what an aunty told me, due to the high influx of people into the country, transports are getting overloaded, supermarkets are getting endless beelines and everyone is just too frustrated to bother about anything at all. All we want might be just to live as hassle-free as it can get. However, we are unable to do it now.

There are so much going in my mind that I want to let it out, however, I just can't speak those thoughts freely. Limitations are always there as to what you can say and what you can't. Thread properly. If not, drop gloriously.

A short one for today, I will see if I can type more later on.