It's Sunday evening and I have not reached a final decision. I will mail out the offer letter tomorrow morning, go for my medical check up on Tuesday. Now the problem is: How do I resign? Most people tell me to type a resignation letter and give it to your supervisor on Monday. They will have more time to look for replacement. Perhaps, they could even ask someone else in other department to replace you for the time being. There is nothing for me to worry about and that is the worry of the company. But do I really think that way?
I have this bad habit on dwelling too much into a simple problem. This made me distracted, stress and worried all the time. It affects productivity in a good way because I am focusing on my work to run away from the problem at hand. Even though I can make myself think that things would not be so bad, I can't help but to worried about the future which I can not predict. Due to this bad habit, I always have a tough time making decisions. It takes a long time for me to make one. Sometimes I hope for others to make the decision for me. I need to fix this habit of mine and learn to make decisions accounting to things which matter. There should be a process behind accounting for different areas of consideration in a decision. Some examples of considerations to make in a decision are benefits for self and family, the opportunity cost, whether the change is necessary etc. These considerations will be different depending on the individuals. Now, I need to understand what are the considerations for myself and how to make swift and good decisions based on this consideration. (Just a remark: I've been reading about how coding can be used to solve many problems in our world. I wonder if it will be able to solve this problem? I don't think computers have make decision for us. We should make our own decision and let the computers remind us on the considerations that we may have when making such decision.)
The title of this post reminds me about a book named: Blink! I think it is about making decisions in a split second and those decisions are surprising accurate and good. Maybe taking too long to make a decision may not be as good. People always give me the illusion that a decision that had gone through a well-thought process should be good. Yet, this book really make me doubt about making well-thought out decision. Of course, this is definitely different from impulse buying. Don't people tell me you are making decision in a split second when buying things on impulse.
Now that a decision is made. The only ingredient I need is: Courage. The courage to resign and face my current colleagues and supervisors. The courage to change the norm of my daily routine. The courage to adapt to a job position which I have never really heard of. Well, one ingredient can achieve so much. It's really a bargain. Don't you think so?
Recently I feel that my mum has been over-working herself. I wonder why is she trying so hard. I feel that her work has depreciating rate of returns. Hard work can be put in moderately but up till a certain point, the returns will not be as attractive. Moreover, the cost of working hard will be higher as you put in more time and more effort. Perhaps, this is due to the nature of her company and the nature of her job. This may not be true if you are an entrepreneur. You may make a fortune with those additional time and effort put into your business. However, as an employee, you are unlikely to reap these benefits. Of course, this is not a reason for us to be lazy. We still need to work moderately at a pace which we are comfortable at. Sigh, if only I earn enough to support my whole family, this will not have happened. The only thing I can do now is to put in my best effort and minimise any regrets. Some people may not understand but I am positive that there will be people out there who understand me. It is just fate that has not brought us together to share what we are going through.
There are still quite some time before going to bed. I will try to focus studying for a bit and prepare my resignation letter for tomorrow. I hope I will be able to persevere through this time.
Hope your weekend is great. Feel free to share with me if you want to. Stay smiling :)
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