There is nothing to lose when we all begin with nothing since the day we are born. That is a good and positive way to look at things. It just makes me feel better. I wouldn't be feeling depressed all day long. I'm afraid that I had lost one major part of my life, but that creates and opens up opportunity for me to experience new things that I may have been thinking about. It frees up some time for myself. But I have to admit that it's a grave loss.
Life seems to be like a game of chess. (This sentence seems to be commonly used in movies, music, anime and books.) To me, I just do not have a talent in chess. Normally, I will try to predict the possible consequences of my move but I do not seem to have great insight to the future. This results in increasing inaccuracy in my predictions which cause severe disappointment. Maybe I should not be thinking life as a game of chess. I should probably take an alternative perspective and see if my days improve as time passed.
Some of the things are often out of our control. Then again, we can control the perspective we take. To solve a problem, you can simply choose to click on 'delete' if everything just doesn't work out right for you. If you think that you have given enough time and effort in a commitment which turns out to make your life miserable, then perhaps you should consider the option of giving up. "Giving up" does not solely mean "incompetence", "disability" and what others might tell you; it actually provides you an opportunity to replace your time for the commitment with something else. Yes, risk is involved in the process. However, since your life is pretty miserable, you have nothing to lose trying out new things and experience a different approach in life. Only through experiencing and risking a change, you will be able to find something that you are suitable for. Only then, you may be truly happy with your life. (I hope this paragraph makes sure. I shall read this again tomorrow just to make sure it does.)
The time is 11:11am in Singapore. In twelve hours time, I will be awake and doing some tidying up. I wonder how long will it takes. I hope I could leave by 2.30pm latest. However, I have not decided if I should travel around tomorrow since I do not have much commitment. Perhaps, I should just travel back home so that I would save some money. I do not really have a lot left for myself this month. Yes, I should be staying home.
I notice that some videos in YouTube have been playing ads. I wonder how did they do that when I had ad-block enabled. I do not mind YouTube ads, but some of them are just too long that it interrupt the video and my string of thoughts. Well, not sure it is just me who is experiencing this or are there others who had experienced it too. No one seems to be complaining anywhere though. Perhaps the consumers had been pre-empt about this. I may not have notice the news then. (I will check around a bit more tomorrow.)
Next month, the day before the long public holiday. I will be having my operation. That's why I should be saving up, in case I need to pay up cash for it. It is just a ritual to keep my mum at ease. She is uneasy about me not doing check-ups and not treating my condition even after knowing them. This is all because of our financial status. If we are much well-off, then these wouldn't be a problem at all. I wouldn't have to be mocked at during work. (Well, what can I do? Ignoring is the best option for all.)
My week was not bad this week, hence, a significant reduce in the number of complaints. However, I am pretty lost in the direction in which I am planning to take. I should be re-looking into their viability and re-evaluate what I really want to achieve.
Hope you guys enjoy your weekend. Relax and de-stress yourself. Ciao~ ツ
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