One additional meaningless day..So am I wasting my time?

I think I am a little confused about the my direction in life right now. This results in the lack in motivation to do anything apart from stoning, basically rotting my day away. Perhaps the best thing to do now is to find someone to talk to. However, I doubt I have anyone like this by my side. Putting that aside, there are plenty of problems and bad habits for me to deal with on a day to day basis.

Having too much on my plate is not a good thing. Though I experience the lack of time and energy to deal with it, I can't seem to find a solution to improve my current situation. May be I am not thinking hard enough. Perhaps, I am just to pre-occupied with useless problem roaming in my mind all day long. However, knowing that and doing something about it is two very different thing. Some effective actions need to be taken. Yet, what are the effective actions? This is something I need to figure it out fast.

Many of us experience putting something off to a later time because we are in no condition to deal with it currently. With this, there is a possibility of making a simple problem into a complicated issue if the problem is time-sensitive. Hence, there is a need to analyse the problem at hand and decide whether it is necessary to deal with it now. If it is, even if you are in no condition to come up with an optimal actions, some actions may still be taken to address the time-sensitivity of the issue. Perhaps, your life may be easier that way.

There is one thing that bugs me at the end of my day and that is being unproductive. I used to planned something during the weekend when I have time on my own and accomplished it (or at least some of it). This week is the only exception because I had not done anything that I had planned. Even when I went out for a walked, I seemed to be confused on the direction I want to go. That does not usually happen to me. I am often sure about the shops I want to visit and the places I want to go. But that's not the case this weekend.

Something had gone wrong. But what?

Yes, I admit something is wrong with me. Apart from worrying and stress, there are nothing else that can explain my own behaviour. I should be putting in more effort to know myself better. Then, I will be able to address such problem properly.

No, I had not spoken to anyone about the problem. There is no one to speak to and there is no need for them to know either. I will only let them know when the results are confirmed and when I received a confirmed answer about the situation. Talking about uncertainty...Well, people may misunderstand thinking that I am trying to attract attention.

Time for some rest. 

I will rest for now. Hopefully I can manage this somehow. I do not want to lose my job. It is difficult to secure a job position nowadays. I really hope that things will work out somehow.

Pray for the best. Be positive. (ง︡'-'︠)ง