When I was out to get a cup of coffee in the afternoon today, I saw an old lady crying by the exit stairs of the MRT (which is like a train) station. Before I could approach the lady, someone else had approached her asking what is wrong. However, not every passer by intends to do that. Some of them just walked by ignoring her totally. While others didn't even realize that she was there at all. How would you feel if you see such scene?
As for me, there are several questions pop into my head, why is she crying? How did she end up sitting there? Is she really crying? Does she really need help? Is that a money-scam act? Perhaps, some might think that I think too much, and even if its to scam money, she is that old now, you can just spare some for her. Unfortunately, if I would spare some for her, I rather save that up to pay back the hospital bills. However, this incident will remain as a mystery since I was not the one who approached her first. I stood there blankly after seeing someone else trying to help her. After I get my coffee, I walked back to the specific place where she sat at and she was not there any more. Let's just hope that she is not really suffering badly and manage to find her way home safely (that's assuming she is sincerely crying).
Apart from that, as usual work was extremely busy today. Due to some unfortunate events of the team leader's family, she was allowed an additional two days of leave to resolve her problems. Within this week, it's a total of four days of leave. I was not even granted one day when my mum had to go for CT scan. That's just normal, since it is normal for humans to be unfair. Other than that, the work load is almost the same since even when she is along she would just pass all of them to me. 'Thank you so much for giving me the opportunity to learn', learning that being new and lowly ranked is no difference from being a slave.
I wonder what awaits tomorrow, are there any complaints or things which I did them wrongly? No, I shouldn't be bothered about this, I should be thinking if there would be calls for interview for the suitable job position which allows extra time for me to sign up and attend the course that I had my eyes on. Yes, that would keep me motivated. No wonder I was so down by the time I reached home.
It's raining so heavily right now, it makes me want to just close my eyes and drift into dreamland. I bet many out there would like to do so but we all have our duties, responsibilities which we have to complete before we can rest peacefully. Sometimes theses aren't our choices but we were forced into such situation. How are we forced then? There are different factors: Stress, work, parent influence, peers influence ... and so much more. I bet you could ask a junior college student to write an essay about it. However, I am not going to.
To be honest, I am so grouchy because I have not even started reading chapter two as I was fixing my bathroom heater which once again was spoilt. It seems to be that once you are not doing well, everything seems to be going the wrong way naturally. Everything you try to achieve just goes wrong somewhere, making you irritated, frustrated, depressed, unmotivated... These negative feelings make us suffer. We would eventually be deprived of smiles and happiness. That was how I felt today. No matter how I try, nothing seems to be going the right way. Everything goes wrong at work, and opportunities just slip away like flowing water. For now, the only thing left is for me to comfort myself, and hope that tomorrow would be a better day. Will it be?
I wonder if I could post twice today, I think I can't since I don't have much time left to study and rest. However, I will try to if I can. For now, I will try to read up a little to make myself feel slightly better about myself.
For those who are experiencing the rain, enjoy the sound of the rain and your rest.
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