Though I doubt that it will going to be useful at all. It has been raining since morning, such a good day to sleep in. However, as I said yesterday, it was grandmother's birthday and hence we woke up rather early to celebrate her birthday. Unfortunately, there were not enough food for everyone, I was only offered a piece of cake. Blame it on looks. I should have dress better for more food I guess.
The very first thing I learned was that "if you're poor, you better keep quiet or else, you will be treated like a slave". That happened to my precious mum who loves to assume that her family members are all saints. It just happens to be the opposite. Most of them are prideful and arrogant. A few loves to judge people by their looks and only talk to ones who dress really well. It's probably because everyone has their personal preference of the crowd they like to hang out with.
Another new thing that irritates me was the fact that they can't even do simple things for grandma even though they seem to brag about every other thing. Everyone was pushing the responsibility of just taking a photo of grandma and the cake and print it out for her to keep. No one was willing to do such a simple thing. They could brag about their son who graduated from polytechnic working as a sales supervisor while waiting for National Service, about another son who applied for visa for migration to USA, about their daughter having great results and hence stayed at home to study so that she can get scholarship for her university education...It goes on and on and on. When someone commented that we should take a photo as a memory, excuses like "I don't know how to print", "We don't have printer", "Inconvenient for me to do that"....Of course, eventually I was the one who did it since no one was willing to. Come on, how many more years does grandma has to celebrate her birthday, she is already 85 years old.
Sigh, I don't wish to live sighing so much, thinking so much and worrying so much. However, I guess I don't have a choice, I have to learn to accept the personality I have and in turn find something that I will be suitable to do and would provide sufficient income for my family. It's a mystery that I have to find out the answer to. For now, I am not even close to the answer yet. I wonder how long will I take.
I guess I will just cook myself ramen. Thereafter, I would like to complete the half done post I did yesterday before Monday arrives. I doubt I would have the spare energy to study well during work days.
Enjoy the weekend.
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