Therefore, today's dinner menu: Cup Instant Noodle! That's a must have item on my survival kit, not only they are cheaper than normal food, they can be cooked within 3 minutes. Of course, there are always good and bad. They aren't healthy, not nutritious enough and tend to result in hair loss..There are more disadvantages, however, I will not list them out for now.
Today is a rather inefficient day, I didn't get much done and I am still indecisive in certain issues. As usual, team leader remains on leave, and there are tons to complete. I woke up early today, however, somehow the bus came later today, hence, got to office slightly later. It was because of this I was held up even later today. In fact, I spent almost 14 hours travelling and working when I am paid only 8 hours a day, OT was not paid to me at all. The six hours, I wonder why the hell should I waste so much time on that. This happens when you really don't enjoy what you are doing. You just dread working and wish to hurry home and do the things you really enjoy to de-stress. I am not sure about others but at least I feel this way.
Resting early really helps and I feel much better today. Planning to start typing the next tutorial tonight, however, I am not really sure when I could finish it. I have not really get my thoughts organize yet.
When I opened my email this morning, I saw an advertisement on careers and courses fair. I wonder if I should attend that, however, if I am not wrong, the event days are during July. This means two more months to go. Even though I have started searching for job opportunities, I haven't have time to go for interviews which totally defeat the purpose in the first place. I am thinking of a way out of this.
After working with them for quite some time now, it's obvious that they are really close to each other and no wonder help each other out so much. "Helping" are more towards justifying unjust within our work place. One typical example is "In order for you to learn more, you will have to do more right?", "Ya, you're lucky that you are given all the work because you can learn.", "Right, you don't know how fortunate you are." There I go with all the work and no OT pay at all for that. Some might that argue that it's true, only when you do things then you will be learning. Yes, I have been doing all the things, yet they are all repetitive how I even learn? Plus, due to the pushing of responsibility, I am the one with all the work, they are the ones chatting away about their upcoming vacation plans this year. Furthermore, they are having a new project to be done, and interestingly, I was not included inside. I guess I am just a slave instead of a team member. If so, I guess I really should leave. Reasons being I am not part of the team, I guess not even part of the company, just someone who came in to do things that other refuse to. That's all to it. In fact, I don't understand why I am feeling disappointed when I should have know that when they just don't pay me my OT while others get paid. I was employed as a full time staff, but I feel like I am some part time odd job worker for the company. It's laughable that my previous company treats me much better than this, I was included in all the weekly meetings for updates and upcoming changes on our team project, and to think I was only on a contract position with that company. I guess every company has their own cultures and values, hence, comparing them like this may not be fair. It's perhaps my personal preference to be in an inclusive environment rather than an exclusive one.
It's already 9.30 pm. Time passed slowly at work, however, once I reached home, time flies. Tell me that I am delusional.
I guess it's not only me who feel this way, I bet many others find themselves not having a good job fit. However, many of us couldn't just leave our job like this due to perhaps financial responsibilities and other constraints. When the time comes, we would eventually find ourselves too late to do a job switch due to the lack of skills and experience in the job that may suit us. There is also an uncertainty that the job you might want to switch to, does not suits you at all. I wonder is there any constructive solution to such issues. It seems like this issue is persistent through time, yet it is not being addressed well enough. Education is certainly not the answer to this question, sorting humans through credits in the subjects they score well may not land them in the exact job that they can do exceptionally well and enjoy doing them.
Well, perhaps I should stop here and start typing my second Java tutorial and try to catch up on some readings later. I may jot down my thoughts about the break down yesterday later though I am somewhat reluctant to.
No comments:
Post a Comment